
SSGVinyard
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Believing God for Miracles in Marriages
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Sadness, that is what I feel. I know that I caused all this pain and that a great deal of what I feel now is the fall out from my actions. But it still hurts! Do you have any idea what it's like to be in a combat zone, surrounded by your comrades in arms and to still be alone. I reach out to God and he provides solace, and that keeps me going on, but the sadness stays and at times it seems almost unbearable! Do you know what it's like to wonder if people REALLY love you! how could they? How could they love a person built on lies and deceit? I am trying to walk in the word, to insure th
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Dead men have no feelings? Sorry but I am not sure I understand what that is suppposed to mean. As far as the rest of your message, thank you. I promise to let everyone know when I am venting. I just miss being able to vent about work to my wife. She is the only person that I know right now that understands my abbreviations, lingo and work requirements. So it hard to not be able to talk to her about these things. I do understand though, I know why and I am doing my best to remember to walk in the light of the word and to be more "Christlike" with her. I have to remember that I have cause
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I had a question that may sound like im stupid or self centered but here goes: when is it okay for me to have feelings in all of this?? People tell my wife that I am slipping and that the flowers I sent her were a token that should not be given too much weight! I am trying here, but its hard sometimes to know whos worldy advice i should take. Some tell me to live in the word, some tell me to live in the word but not to bring it up all the time! I dont know what to do. I am on the path to the light of the word but I have no idea what to do here on earth!!! I know that I am the one that
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Just so you know I am reading the books I am almost done with them. Also be advised that I am more scared of losing my final verdict at the judgment. I am WAY past being scared "because I am in the hot seat". I am truly trying to change my ways, in EVERY way. I know I was a VERY wicked person, filled with filth and moral decay. That is not a point I am arguing. All I am trying to do is to find the light within myself. My wife finding out what I had done was the best thing that ever could have happened to me! Everyday I feel remorse for what I have done, not for myself but for my lovely
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thank you SOOO much for your words. To answer the question that is out there: yes I have repented for what I have done, for real this time. I dont want the remorse for what i have done to go away I just want the pain to go away. I will not ever let myself forget what I have done. I know that I ned to carry it with me always and let it serve as a reminder of what a life lived in sin is TRULY like! As far as asking her if she loves me, again I would have to say that you are right. It still doesn't undermine the fact that I would REALLY like to know. I know that it is an EGO thing and I am doin
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thank you for the prayer. I am starting to learn that the more you surround your self with the WORD and people who are trying to live in it, the better it is. I still wish the pain of what i have done and the wickedness of it would be washed away from My wife. She is such a beautiful person (in looks, actions and spirit). I am such a fool!
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When will the pain of all I have done to her leave me? I know that sounds shallow but my heart HURTS. I pray to God every chance I get for guidance. I ask his forgiveness. I pray that my wife will have peace that her heart and HER pain and the burden of knowing what i done will be lifted from her! I do all this and pray for my soldiers but the pain I feel is crippling and all consuming. I am trying to lay down my burden but it wont depart from me!! I am reading the books and it helps but at the end of the night when I close my eyes after prayer all I feel is pain!