(2nd try as board erased the first attempt) I am 49 years old and married for 28 years. My wife left me in August after finding porn in my web history. I had anger issues and after reading much in the last 3 months find I was the problem. My problem of me is compounded with Papers served including Restraining Orders. It is a bleak Christmas this year. I have repented of the porn and have Covenant Eyes blocking both Facebook and YouTube. I have drawn very close to God and until 2 weeks ago felt there was hope. My wife brought up in open court pain that was simply NOT true from 27 years ago and she had a stack to read from. The one account was accepted by the judge who made the TRO permanent for 1 year. I am teachable, and would join the calls, except I work from 1400- 1830 each night in California. I use this username on other boards and so if needed I can accept a new username if needed.