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Dory and C2,

 

I am not sure how to say this but I am not sure I get the "Ruby slippers" comment. I may be really dense about this but I need help. Thanks for the offer of gardening tips. Basically I need to know EVERYTHING!! We bought our plants from a local organic grower, whom I know is VERY reputable and have gotten stuff from in the past. We live near Mt. St. Helen's and our soil is really, really bad; you can't even really call it 'soil'. We bought some top soil to put in our raised beds that we built. I can't kneel, so we had to build the raised beds.

 

My little KIT pulled the only salk of corn I have gotten to grow; she mistakenly thought it was a 'weed'. The corn was planted from seeds, the rest has been from plants. We lost our green houses twice before we got them totally secured and this caused some beginning problems. I need to know everything from how much to water and how often, to what to expect of growth and how -oh shoot I got interrupted with a medical doctoring of a 2 year old and I lost my train of thought. So basically I am a clueless blob. All advice/suggestions are needed and welcome.

 

Thank you for responding, both of you. Hope this was a lovely Friday for you.

 

 

BLessings,

 

Tigger

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Tigger, everyone knows what's going on (or not going on!), and has been aware of it for several years.

 

I do want to hear about your last doctor's visit when you're up to talking or typing.

 

I read about the change of permanancy for your youngest children and the possibility of adopting the little girl. I pray the Lord will give you an unshakable peace and you'll know His perfect will.

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That gets harder and harder for me when there are a lot of days in a row with no connection, I just want to explode. But in hind site, everything I wanted to explode about was justifiable, it's just hard to take the hit 2 out of 3 times. I don't know about you but it wears me out, especially when there is a backslide.

 

sadly this is EXACTLY where I am at today. Yuck!

 

OK, "Ruby Slippers" , meaning those blue words (slight adjustment for the listeners ears) were perfect and they came (mostly) from you. You already KNOW what to say - you just need the right time and space - which was why I suggested the bedroom during the day time.

YOu don't need us as much as you think you do.

 

As for the adoption, if you aren't that mobile, I wouldn't take in a troubled 6 year old. You already know in your spirit that your capability is limited by your physical constraints. And with that in mind, if you don't get them young enough to train them up from those precious critical "window of opportunity" timeframes, then you could be railroaded by this child. I think deep down you know this, but your generous heart has a real hard time saying "no". Does saying "saying no" cause you to feel like a failure? And so then you have a hard time doing it?

 

You are doing the right thing. Pooh needs to get on board to LISTENING to your heart. If he insists, then put it back into his lap and say, "OK, then you are the primary person responsible for raising this child. As I can't go there right now with my physical constraints and with a husband who is not listening to my heart where children and relationships are concerned.."

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As for the garden, the best thing I ever did FOr my garden was buy a rain barrel with a downspout collection device. So when it rains, i can use that water rather than tap water to water the garden. And I don't even have city water, I have WELL water. So with that, one might ask, what's wrong with using your well water, that should be natural enough. Well, sadly it is TOO natural. How? Well, we live in clay soil which has a higher pH value, so when it rains, water percolates through the clay soil to the well. When that happens, the well water also has a high pH value. Thus I am watering high pH soil with high pH water. When the pH value is too high or too low, your plants will not absorb the nutrients N-P-K as they should. So by collecting the rain which has a lower pH value, (acid rain), it balances out the pH value that the plant's roots see. so this isn't even about the chlorine that is in Water provided by city services. Even well water is not as beneficial to a garden as rain can be.

 

The downspout collection device attaches to the downspout of the gutter. When it rains even for 10 minutes you can fill a rain barrel. I put my rain barrel up on bricks so that it has at least one and a half feet of gravity to feed to feed the garden hose with that screws into the bottom of the rain barrel. This provides enough force of water to gently water the garden with good low pH rain during the dry times.

 

If you have the acidic soil, then then all bets are off. You'll need to test the pH of your soil to figure out what you have. If you are carting in topsoil, then your pH values should be good, theoretically. In this case, Rainwater still might be the best way to water your garden.

 

Outside of that, I am sure to recycle all yard waste back into the garden. And if you have a neighbor with horses or cows or chickens - or some other plant eating livestock, then ask them for some manure. Stay away from fecal matter from carnivorous animals. You wouldn't want to spread E. coli into your spinach patch. :huh:

 

Hope this helps a little. God bless.

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We are having computer problems. She hopes to have it fixed soon.

 

Thanks for the update, Pooh.

 

Interesting input of yours. AS brief as it is, if you don't mind my picking it apart, it might be very telling of what's happening on your end.

 

You see, your first sentence indicates that you see the "problems" as being BOTH your problem, while the second sentence puts the "fix" on HER back.

 

While this may or may not be the case in reality, the problem might be in "how you see" your problems/fixes. You see, if it is only even a subconscious problem, it still permeates the relationship and weighs heavily on your little butterfly companion's spirit (i.e. - your wife) who wasn't designed to fix all problems. That's YOUR job.

 

So, I challenge you today to do what you can to help her "fix" this problem. Call/go to her and ask, "Honey, what can I do to help you get that computer up and running again? Can I take it to a computer geek?" Then do it ASAP.

 

Then start to look upon and act on ALL household problems this way.

 

I know you surely didn't expect me to pick this innocent little comment apart, but I thank you for letting me have the opportunity to do it. Perhps little ungaurded comments are where we can "see into" your world or possible "misguided thinking". I hope you can receive it in the spirit of love that I am sending. Give it some thought...

 

It none of what I am saying rings true, then by all means, Tigger can correct me when she gets back on.

 

God Bless you both this day.

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Hello all, from the lost Tigger.

 

I am somewhat back, though the computer is still fighting me. I am a total computer dead head, no clue what to do. POOH did try to work on it the other night for me. He always says that he is not good with computers, but he did something that helped.

 

Dory,

 

So nice of you to help direct POOH in his posting abilities. You are quite right. It is the underlying issue of how he expresses himself. In this case he knew it would not be "me" who would fix the problem, but it would be him who needed to spend time working on it. If he 'owned' that then he would be in the position of ??---> "Why haven't you blessed her by doing that already??"

 

He does not want to be perceived as not meeting my needs. I do think it is somewhat unconscious. I have battled with a 5 day long migraine that I am just now starting to come out of; he has also been sick, like really vomiting type sick. He has been in school all this week with a required Federal Gov. class, so he has pushed to manage that; he looked so bad when he came home I did not have the heart to push him.

 

Beyond this immediate point, this is how he usually functions. He is never willing to take this on himself and "own" responsibility; our oldest has become exactly the same way!! It is always someone else's fault. Lately he has not even been accepting of when I have pointed things out to him. I have had to tell him to apologize to our children and have had to hound him for his attitude/tone of voice. I know that when we do not feel well, we are NOT at our best, so some grace extended during this period of being ill.

 

I feel like we have taken a couple of steps backwards. He had gotten better about allowing me to point things out to him; now not so much. I felt like we were moving ahead for a period of time, but now he is fighting me with all he has in his non-dead guy soul. He wants to be Christlike, but boy does the deceiver not want him to make it to an OHM. I am not expecting perfection, that is not fair; I just want him to keep moving forward, not taking steps backwards.

 

I hope this makes sense, my head is still nagging me, and looking at the screen is hard; concentrating is near impossible. I have much catching up to do, so it may take me a while. Well I will close for now, need to hit the shower.

 

BLessings,

 

Tigger

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Thanks for the update.

 

I am not expecting perfection, that is not fair; I just want him to keep moving forward, not taking steps backwards.

 

Pooh, isn't this what you want too? The two other alternatives are: having a DEAD wife who doesn't give a whoop about you, or having a gone wife who can't live with the passive dysfunction. If she is willing to stay and help and growth WITH you, please see that as a gift that not many men have the privilege to enjoy.

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Tigger & Dory

 

Sorry for the short reply. I was trying to say that: Yes I feel blessed that my wife wants to work with me, She is excepting of my short comings, and is patient with me. I do desire to move forward and look for sources to help me succeed in this. By having external views (on the situation) you can see things that you yourself are blind too. So please always put comments in. I need all the help I can get. Let the Holly Spirt guide you. And as always thanks for caring.

 

Pooh

 

Sorry this dose not look like much more but it is the thought that was in the other, if you could read my mind.

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Hi C2,

 

Hey, thank you for asking after me. I am VERY tired right now and struggling with my health. I went to Seattle this week for my Lyme specialist. I learned that in addition to Lyme Disease, I also have the following:

 

Ehrilchiosis

Babesiosis

Bartonellosis

 

These are all additional autoimmune diseases. If that was not enough I learned that I have a bleeding problem and am bleeding internally somewhere; though they do not know where---> yet. In addition, either because of the bleeding problem, or possibly because of some other issue, I have a deadly low iron level and am beyond what they would even term anemic. I need to go to a Hematologist for them to do an extensive work up, as well as some genetic testing, as both my mom and I had anemia when we were younger.

 

This also helps to explain why I have been experiencing hour long nose bleeds, for no apparent reason. The confusing thing for me is that, when they go to draw blood, they have such a hard time, yet I am a bleeder when I should not be bleeding.

 

The good news is... I finally have the official letter my stupid, redneck local PCP says she needs to refer me to a pain specialist. I go to the PCP on Thursday, who know how long it will take to get appointments with these other doctors.

 

The other thing that is good coming up is I go to the Neuro-Ophthalmologist on Monday and am hoping that I will get an all clear following this last MRI (it was a week ago Wednesday). If I get the all clear then I know I will not have to have another MRI for at least 6 months, so the Orthodontist can put my braces back on and one thing will actually get done and I can move forward to something positive.

 

Thank you for your concern. I need to go help with dinner. Bye!!

 

BLessings,

 

Tigger

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C2,

 

In ah honest answer to your question, no I am not fine, but the good news it is NOT marriage hurt at the moment!! ::clap ::clap I am going through some rough times with the herxing (sp) that is happening right now, which is the die off from the disease. We are not sure if it is just die off or if it is actually a reaction to the antibiotic. Either way it has been a rough go of things.

 

On the upside... this weekend was much calmer in our home. I really saw POOH trying not to yell, it cost him at times, but I believe that this would be referred to as "dying". Now, having given praise, I want to caution him that this is the first step to a FOREVER change, no going back!! He really helped me alot yesterday, I know he wanted to rest but he kept at the stuff we were working on together and he was very sensative to my needing this help and sensative to my not over doing, because I have a desire to 'finish' a job.

 

He was not feeling well and our 2 year old was vomiting off and on all day, so this was a challenging time. Our oldest was not being responsible for taking his medicine which really made the day go down hill by evening. POOH kept it together, though he did come up and sign that he wanted to ring our oldest sons neck. Our oldest son can get to him or anyone for that matter, even a saint, but POOH has to be Christlike, even in this.

 

I don't want to drag this out, I think he did well this weekend, he just needs to show that he will continue to live this life, all the way to eternity!! On a good note. I have started with my practice driving, so that is good, if albeit a little scary!! POOH has ordered me the special mirror I will need, so ::clap for POOH!! I asked and he did it, that was good!! Thank you POOH. Well I need to take care of our boys, so I must close. Thank you for caring!!

 

BLessings,

 

Tigger

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Hi there you darling women with such an amazing amazing heart. Far more precious than gold.

 

I hope you dont mind Tigger, that i left a big 'thank you' on your husbands thread for the way he has recently blessed you and touched your heart for real.

 

I pray this will become an hourly way of him living with you.

 

Lots of love

NewLife

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Hellooooooooo Tiggerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr !

 

I'll be joining you and Aslan's Child on the herxing crew pretty soon. I don't want to start treatment until I get back to Alabama.

 

I'll be on the road a lot between now and Thursday night if you'd like to call. We're trying to get my daughter to NYC to finish the neuropsych testing Saturday. We plan to rest in the NYC Miracle House apartment all day Friday.

 

I'm praying for you Tigger. I need to read your thread; I haven't seen anything since your little one choked.

 

TTFN

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Tigger, that is so great that Pooh is blessing you and not yelling at the kids!

 

The internal bleeding, that is worrisome. Seems like they could trace that with some sort of an x-ray and dye. Yes, very important that you don't overdo it.

 

Hope the computer is up and running soon. We miss you!

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Hi All,

 

We are haveing computer problems at home. So I do not know when Tigger will be back on line.

 

Pooh

 

Pooh, I sure hope that you are doing everything you can to get Tigger back online --- she truly needs this to stay connected since she must take everything easy due to her health.

 

My .02

 

June of

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Hello All,

 

Our computer is sort of up and running, when it has a mind to do so. We have no idea what is wrong, but sometimes it will just stop working. I can be typing and all the sudden it just stops. Weird. Our satelite is working weird too, sort of hit and miss.

 

Additionally I have not been well. 2 rounds of antibiotics for Bronchial-Pneumonia and I am still not able to breathe right. POOH leaves tomorrow for a government exercise, so if anything happens while he is gone, I am doomed, as far as the computer is concerned, not my health.

 

I am thinking of calling the doctor again about my health, this is just crazy.

 

Marriage wise we are kind of just plugging along, one day at a time. I don't think that we are progressing, it seems like any forward movement has ceased!! Now the good thing is we are not going backwards. I would like to move forward, but I have not been pushing him; therefore... NOTHING happens. This is just tiring!!

 

Well I need to get going. Did not want anyone to think I fell off the face of the earth. Will endeavour to post more and better. This week is probably not the best, I am testing all three of my children for their annual home school exam; which is much harder on me then it ever is on them. Write more when I can.

 

BLessings,

 

Tigger

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