Last Chance Posted December 25, 2009 Report Share Posted December 25, 2009 I am losing interest. My wife is as bitter as she has ever been after attempts to apologize from the heart. She feels that I am not trying to win her back assertively...fact is, I don't know if I want to now. Things are a mess, she gives me a fraction of the poison I've pumped into her life over the years and I can't handle it. It's Christmas eve...and the last place I want to be is with her tonight like this. Honestly, the emotions for her have been gone and it would be fake for me to muster something up. There is zero encouragement for any attempts or efforts. She is growing more resentful (her own words). Her fallback to keep from divorcing me is simply "the kids". And now I've been informed that I'm no longer saved...that she is to pray for my salvation. After our intensive two weeks ago, I got two jobs and am still looking for more. I'm reading 10 minutes, watching the DVDs. Didn't she kick me out...and now she wants to know about my life and where I'm going and what I'm doing...? "My friends know more about your whereabouts than I do!" she said. I am living with a family during our separation...and the wife in the family is friends with my wife. OF COURSE she is going to know what I am doing...WHAT?? Can somebody tell me what I have to do to have any positive emotions for my wife? She is all full of wisdom as to how my passivity has tanked our marriage...so maybe I just need a label tatooed to my forehead that says (amongst other things) "Unfit to be married". I honestly don't have any emotions within me that cry out "NO - we have to save our relationship". Her anger and distance in the face of my attempts and how she is processing my attempts and the conclusions she is coming up with make me question this whole process. I am close to being done. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
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