Crystal Posted October 25, 2011 Report Share Posted October 25, 2011 Hope deferred makes the heart sick... You are enjoying and loving your son. Good. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Princess Fiona Posted October 25, 2011 Report Share Posted October 25, 2011 Am Praying for you lonely mama. My gorgeous daughter gave me this verse many years ago, when I was in a bad way. I want to give it to you today to cling to. You are God's girl, and He WILL restore you, and give you the desires of your heart. He grieves with you, and bottles all your tears Psalm 126 : 5 Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy. 6 Those who go out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with them. Nothing is wasted in our Lord's economy, and your tears are precious to Him, and, somehow, in a way you cannot possibly imagine now, He will use this season in your life to bless you and bless others, and one day your face will be shining with joy, and you will need a lot of help carrying those "sheaves" he's got for you. Another thing, from my own personal experience, God is faithful to compensate for the lack in our children's lives. He will close the gap for your son, and give things to him that he needs, just not in a way that you dreamed of when you started out. But still, God will be faithful to you and your child. It really isn't all up to you. Father, you know the depths of Lonely mama like no-one else, you can reach her like no-one else, I pray that you would show yourself to her today, give her a sign, just for her, that you are with her, and she is not alone. I thank you Father, for your faithfulness to us, and that your mercies are new every day. Amen. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Looney_Tunes Posted October 26, 2011 Report Share Posted October 26, 2011 to be honest I am human and I miss the touch of someone who loves me I know. I'm just as human as you are. And I spend half my life at Eeyore and HD's watching them get their OHM, and some days it's just hard, ya know? Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever have that. Eeyore says I will and I try to make myself believe it, but to be honest I'm not totally convinced. God is faithful to compensate for the lack in our children's lives. He will close the gap for your son, and give things to him that he needs, just not in a way that you dreamed of when you started out. But still, God will be faithful to you and your child. It really isn't all up to you. Amen! I have seen this over and over with my kids. Sometimes I am amazed by the people they are becoming. They are caring and compassionate and not afraid to stand up for what they believe, and they certainly didn't get that from their dad. Your little guy will be OK. Tell ya what - you hang in there, and so will I, OK? I'll even bring the chocolate. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Princess Fiona Posted October 26, 2011 Report Share Posted October 26, 2011 Hey Lonely Mama, I read thru your string last night. My oh my. It seems to me the enemy chose the wrong one of "God's Girls" to pick on. You are amazing. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelymama Posted October 27, 2011 Author Report Share Posted October 27, 2011 Thanks Fiona. So here is some interesting news I am running for city council. Will go in and talk to them tomorrow. pray for me Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Little Redheaded Girl Posted October 28, 2011 Report Share Posted October 28, 2011 Thanks Fiona. So here is some interesting news I am running for city council. Will go in and talk to them tomorrow. pray for me Awesome! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelymama Posted November 5, 2011 Author Report Share Posted November 5, 2011 I finally got the internet back. YAY! So school is going well. CJ is growing so fast. I am so thankful to GOD for this ministry. I found a church that believes like the J&K ministry concerning husbands and wives. Just blew me away when they started talking about it in my living room at our bible study on Thursday. God is so amazing. And He is showing himself mightily in this season of my life. Thank you Jesus! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hope Posted November 5, 2011 Report Share Posted November 5, 2011 That's awesome Brandy! Which church is it? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelymama Posted November 7, 2011 Author Report Share Posted November 7, 2011 That's awesome Brandy! Which church is it? New Hope here in Monroe across from my house. Pastor T and sister T come over on thursday to my house to do bible study with us. Pastor T even breaks things down into the hebrew and greek. It's Awesome! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelymama Posted November 7, 2011 Author Report Share Posted November 7, 2011 So I am sitting here doing my homework and watching a sermon on youtube about satan lying to us about relationships and what not. I put some scriptures on my facebook and something about God is God all by himself on there and then four of what seemed to be friends start attacking me about keeping God in church and that I am annoying them. Then they go into how i cant find some to love me and i am afraid to be alone and i am an idiot... real nice. Normally i would break down crying but in all honesty It doesn't bother me. I mean it kinda does but at the same time I just thought it weird. what is going on in my life?? and why this kind of an attack? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
musicteacher Posted November 8, 2011 Report Share Posted November 8, 2011 So I am sitting here doing my homework and watching a sermon on youtube about satan lying to us about relationships and what not. I put some scriptures on my facebook and something about God is God all by himself on there and then four of what seemed to be friends start attacking me about keeping God in church and that I am annoying them. Then they go into how i cant find some to love me and i am afraid to be alone and i am an idiot... real nice. Normally i would break down crying but in all honesty It doesn't bother me. I mean it kinda does but at the same time I just thought it weird. what is going on in my life?? and why this kind of an attack? Hi lonelymama, These people who attacked you are "friends"??? I hope they are just "friends" on Facebook. I would suggest you remove them as friends. No one needs friends like that. Your real friends are the ones who care about you and who spend time with you, either just talking or spending time in your presence. People making unkind comments to you online are not your real friends. There are all kinds of people in the world and we can't let unkind people keep us down. You are the better person! (((HUG))) to you!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelymama Posted November 8, 2011 Author Report Share Posted November 8, 2011 Hi lonelymama, These people who attacked you are "friends"??? I hope they are just "friends" on Facebook. I would suggest you remove them as friends. No one needs friends like that. Your real friends are the ones who care about you and who spend time with you, either just talking or spending time in your presence. People making unkind comments to you online are not your real friends. There are all kinds of people in the world and we can't let unkind people keep us down. You are the better person! (((HUG))) to you!! Thanks Musicteacher. These people were actually real "friends". we used to hang out. But now I know their real colors. and I did remove them from my facebook account. I just can't believe how cruel they were and then they messaged me saying oh don't take it to heart we were just joking. I really am not in the mood for people like that. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hope Posted November 8, 2011 Report Share Posted November 8, 2011 I'm glad you got rid of them! I once received some very good advice...if a "friend" is causing you more stress than friendship, they are not good for your life. Life's too short! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelymama Posted November 9, 2011 Author Report Share Posted November 9, 2011 I'm glad you got rid of them! I once received some very good advice...if a "friend" is causing you more stress than friendship, they are not good for your life. Life's too short! Thanks for the advice. it is good. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Looney_Tunes Posted November 9, 2011 Report Share Posted November 9, 2011 Just poppin' in to say hi! [smilie=hi ya!.gif] I think God's got something big in mind for you, girl, and the first step is to prune out all of the people in your life who will drag you down. Hence the exiting of your dearly departed and your "friends." I can't wait to see what He's gonna do with you! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelymama Posted November 9, 2011 Author Report Share Posted November 9, 2011 (edited) I just realized that I should post the dream I had 3 or 4 days ago. So my dream started in hospital just full of a maze of dark hallways and doors. only place there was light was where I was standing. Scott was there with this other woman. She was cute young thing. I mean real pretty. Curly brown/blonde hair. Beautiful green blue eyes. probably between the ages of 20-23. Curvy. I have no idea why I noticed so much about her but I did. And Scott was just chasing after her. And I mean chasing. He was so in love with her, just wanting her. And yet when he would see me there would be fear and hurt in his eyes. And then outta no where this dark figure like a police officer would come and escort me away from him. I was on my phone during most of this dream. That was weird too. Then Scott and this woman was in a red convertible and he was just smooching on her. Then right before I woke up I came face to face with this woman. We were about 10-15 ft away from each other but we were facing one another. During the dream I kept hearing her name..Melissa. Well as I was face to face with her she told me her real name. She said my name is Jezebel and I am here to destroy him. I care nothing for him. He means nothing to me. I am here to kill him and destroy him from the inside out. then I woke up... So I just looked up the meaning of Melissa.. it means honey bee but then there is the Celtic meaning which means servant of Jesus. Finally after months i have answers to this dream lol Woman (stranger) = Spirit: seducing spirit; temptation; deception; witchcraft; God's messenger/angel; one's own self. (see also, harlot, name) Police = Authority: natural civil or spiritual authority (good or evil;) protection; control; angels or demons; an enforcer of a curse of the law/judgment (because of transgression or an evil covenant.) Red = Passion: emotion; anger; hatred; lust; sin; enthusiasm; zeal. Car, Convertible = Covered/Uncovered: (depending on the top position in the dream;) if top up: the emphasis is on the covering of the auto owner or driver's life (i.e. spirit, attitude, covenant, etc.); if the top is down, then: everything revealed; open; nothing hidden; a self-righteous or unsaved person (as in 'living in the fast lane;') not submitted to authority; pride; sin or evil exposed. (see also, car, motorcycle) Me being on a cell phone had to do with scott callin and lyin to the cops about harassing him. that happened on 8/24/11. Then the cops escorted him away from me at our last court appointment cuz he lied to them. course it didnt help that i got face to face with his thing. Edited November 9, 2011 by lonelymama Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelymama Posted November 9, 2011 Author Report Share Posted November 9, 2011 Just poppin' in to say hi! [smilie=hi ya!.gif] I think God's got something big in mind for you, girl, and the first step is to prune out all of the people in your life who will drag you down. Hence the exiting of your dearly departed and your "friends." I can't wait to see what He's gonna do with you! Hey pretty lady. I miss you. Seems there's been no ladies calls the last two fridays. Thanks for stoppin by on my forum tho Love you. I can't wait to see what GOD does for me either. How are things in your world? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JoelandKathy Posted November 9, 2011 Report Share Posted November 9, 2011 Congrats on the church and all! God takes care of His girrls! (spelled that way on purpose.. Shekinah's way to spell it). Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelymama Posted November 11, 2011 Author Report Share Posted November 11, 2011 Congrats on the church and all! God takes care of His girrls! (spelled that way on purpose.. Shekinah's way to spell it). Yes He does. My friend and roommate Shay became a Christian because she said by watching my life and watching how God has taken care of me an dmy son she wanted to know the Jesus I know. And she is always telling me that no matter what God will take care of her. It's amazing how He loves us. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelymama Posted November 13, 2011 Author Report Share Posted November 13, 2011 My heart is breaking tonight. I am on the call and I love listening to Kathy and Joel. They are such truth speakers. They really ministered to me tonight. Thank you two for all you do. You are awesome. I am missing my ex husband even tho there really is nothing good to miss. It has been 5 months since we have been together physically and it has been 4 months since the divorce was finalized. I have to say it seems like it has been longer. And at the same time not long enough. I have been praying to God a lot and one thing that has come to my attention is that Scott was actually Satan's greatest tool against me. Joel talks about watching out for that guy that will love the Lord and come as a wolf in sheep's clothing. Well what if that guy was my husband? Then what? I know I have a year and half to wait for the turn around but honestly I am not so sure if I would want him back if He did. I know I have a desire to be married. I like the idea of companionship. But I am still pretty wounded. I feel mutilated on the inside. I look pretty on the outside but I am still falling apart on the inside. Everyday does get a little better. God has been faithful. He really does take care of His girrls. ( ) I am rambling I know. I just need to vent my random thoughts. Please pray for me. I am hurting and need a hug and some love. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
musicteacher Posted November 14, 2011 Report Share Posted November 14, 2011 I am rambling I know. I just need to vent my random thoughts. Please pray for me. I am hurting and need a hug and some love. Hi lonelymama, I am feeling some of the same feelings you are, so I understand. I know an e-hug isn't as good as a live hug, but here is one from me... (((HUG))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelymama Posted November 14, 2011 Author Report Share Posted November 14, 2011 Hi lonelymama, I am feeling some of the same feelings you are, so I understand. I know an e-hug isn't as good as a live hug, but here is one from me... (((HUG))) Thank You and here is an e-hug to you as well *** HUG *** Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelymama Posted November 18, 2011 Author Report Share Posted November 18, 2011 So I had a dream the other night: My roommates and I were sitting in his the living room and Shay was telling me how she heard about my ex and his gf and how they were getting ready to kill each other cuz he had lost his license a couple months ago and he was real close to going to jail. In my dream i noticed shay was putting something together into a box. she was sitting where the play pen for my son is. her husband chris was playing on his cell phone and said up he's a dude therefore he's going to jail. but i was sitting on the couch and i was just shocked about every thing she was telling me. I wasn't going to write this dream up here but i kept getting the feeling that i needed too. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelymama Posted November 22, 2011 Author Report Share Posted November 22, 2011 (edited) So I had a dream after that one: I was in the fifth wheel where they have been living in and I was watching Scott and Cindi ( his gf ) talking. Scott was freaking out about loosing his license because he has failed to pay child support. And all I kept hearing her say was "it's going to be okay. We will get through this." Then I woke up. Today I woke up to a vision of a picture of Scotts' motorcycle and I heard the LORD say "I will take his motorcycle," and then I heard 2 more times during the day. I also heard, "I will hit him at his point of pride." This is the same voice I heard a few weeks before he lost his job saying, "I will take his job." Just posting to have records of what God has been revealing to me, so that someday Scott will see what God was doing in the situation. Also I had a question for Joel and Kathy. Everyone keeps saying he (Scott) has to hit rock bottom where it is only him and GOD. Now my question is: What is his rock bottom? I mean honestly. He has lost his wife, child, house, job, 90% of his belongings, half his paycheck (and now the whole thing); the only thing he has left is his truck, camper, motorcycle, gf, "friends", and his bar(s). Joel or Kathy, you have been doing this a long time, how far have you seen guys go down? He has been to jail, only for a night though. I am just curious, because if it were me I would have hit rock bottom at divorce papers... just sayin. Edited November 22, 2011 by lonelymama Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lonelymama Posted November 28, 2011 Author Report Share Posted November 28, 2011 So I had another dream the other night after I had prayed for God to reveal to me what is going on in my situation. So here it is: We were in the parking lot of the first church Scott and I went to. I was standing outside a green station wagon. Him and his gf Cindi were in the back seat. The doors were opened. I circled the car once and called her a whore. Then the second time I began to circle the car Scott was standing outside the car between it and the church. She was getting out of the backseat. I called her a whore. She said "no I'm not!" I replied "yes you are!" She was standing outside of the car at this point. Then by the third part of my dream she was laying in a field in a seductive pose and I yelled out whore!!!! to her pointing my finger. I was looking to my left (I didn't see anyone but I was talking to something or someone) Any insight to this dream would be nice. Now for my personal life. Things are going well. Still in school, almost done with the term. Doing well in my grades. CJ my son is doing awesome. We built a fort in the living room yesterday. It was so much fun. I am purchasing the house back. God is revealing to those who came against me, that I am not the evil one. He actually healed a relationship with Scott's friend that goes to church with me. That was amazing. God is so faithful and so true. My walk with him is getting deeper and so is Shay's. He is blessing us so much. However, on Thanksgiving day, my cousin was killed in a car accident on her way to dinner at her sister's. My family needs prayer. Thanks. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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